I am struggling a little bit right now. School is difficult for me, it always has been, but seems so more recently. Everyone here in the BYU Study Abroad Program are SO smart! They come from a variety of majors and backgrounds, but it is crazy how much they know! I feel so inadequate sometimes. Today I got back a midterm for my Poli Sci class and I didn't do well. I was upset because I had done the reading, studied and really applied myself. I did quite below the average and I almost began to cry in class. It is just hard sometimes to try your hardest and to still not measure up (mainly in relation to school). I don't know what this will mean for my grades, scholarships and everything else, but I am feeling as though it is out of my control since I am trying my hardest. I just need to be happy with what I have done and try to enjoy me experience in London, in spite of it.
I also have been having troubles lately with my body. Most specifically, my eye. My eye has been twitching the past week. I can't control it or do anything about it. It happens a couple times an hour and lasts for a couple minutes. I looked up online reasons for this and it says it could be stressed (which I didn't feel, until today) or it could be fatigue (which would make sense). I am hoping it goes away soon because it is starting to bug me and give me headaches.
Oh, P.S. my English Professor just told us (2 mintues ago) of a Midterm he is assigning 1 week before the final and it is going to cover 100's of poems (none of which I remember) and other random info.
I am sorry if this is a depressing post, I am mainly doing it as a journal entry so I can remember it later.
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Well, that finally explains the eye winking at all the men in London (and Scotland). I can identify with you. School was difficult for me in many ways (mild dyslexia). I would study hard and still come up short. The best semester I had was when I would get up at 4:00 am and study when all was quiet, because when I got home at night, I belonged to my small children and no chance for homework. I was taking 18 hours at the time (what was I thinking?). If you are doing all you can and are prayerful, then you can rest assured the whatever happens is for course correction to place you on a path you may not have considered before. I have a cool story about that but I have to run. I'll tell you about it when I return. Loves and hugs. Papa A.
ReplyDeleteworried here. Do you need to see a doctor? Do you need a Priesthood blessing? Chuck just left for school and recieved a blessing from Dad to help her with her finals today. I'm sure one of the professors would be happy to do it. Aubs, don't compare yourself to others. You are wonderful just the way you are! Stay close to the Lord, do your part, and leave the rest to Him. We love you and are grateful everyday for our SMART, beautiful, kind, loving, righteous Aubrie. We couldn't ask for anything more. Let's skype before you head to Wales. It will help ease our minds.
ReplyDeleteWe Love our Aubrie!
one more thing. I (Mom) am heading to the Temple this morning. Know that I am praying for you today in the Temple.
ReplyDeleteAll my love - Mom